soon I’ll be doing this
So this is the summer that I really dive into music and go hard at it. I need to preform, record, and network as much as I can if I want to be anything or get anywhere with it. I still have plenty of time and connections to do so too. Its just that now I’m crushing on a girl and I don’t know if I should. I told myself “blinders on” then “blinders off” only to lead still to that same girl I put blinders on for. I still conduct myself in a one girl at a time fashion, but I don’t know if I should make anything more of it. I’ve been pushing it, and now the more I think of it I don’t know if i’m ready for this…well her. Cute texts, cute smile, and someone to hang with; all the things that I wanted before but I have doubts not in her as a person but in me.
Is this what I should be doing or playing with? I don’t want to lead her on but I can’t help but say the things I say and do the things I do. I usually don’t give a girl that much attention. I just feel that I should be mainly focused on my music, and music to me is something that I prioritize above almost everything. I drop alot of things for music and really go out of my way for it too.
I’m crushing on her. I don’t like her because it takes me some time to get to know a person before I can actually say that and feel honest with myself let alone her if I were to say it. Even for crushing in my standards, I’ve crossed some lines and am just pushing it. I don’t know what to do and I’m scared I may hurt her feelings if it doesn’t turn out as it shows now. I don’t even know if she feels the same way either. For all I know she could just be teasing or thinks its a joke. Even through this the thought it always leads to is music. I need to clarify and keep to my priorities
This is a bridge in Paris. You hang locks on it with the name of you & your boyfriend/girlfriend/best friend then throw the key into the river. So even though the friendship/relationship may end, you can’t remove the lock. It stays there forever, as relevance to someone once a part of your life.










